Wednesday, April 1, 2009

Like being kicked in the crotch

That's how I am feeling right now.

No, I didn't actually get assaulted in the private area.

Rather, we got a figurative jolt in the nuts via the layoff notice Tim received yesterday.

Come June 1, Tim will no longer have a job at the creamery.

After almost five years of loyal service, this is how it ends.

I have no job. We have bills. And kids who have needs.

I am scared. And worried. And getting angry at the asshat who got the creamery into the current mess it's in. Really angry. Like I want to kick them in the crotch with steel-toed boots.

At least Tim wasn't the only one who got a pink slip yesterday. But that doesn't ease the sting or the realness of what's happening.

But now we have work to do. Tim's already looking for a new job he can jump into when his current job ends. There are so few jobs in this area to begin with, so his job search is in other cities in Northern California. We might have to move again. It will be a pain, but I will gladly move wherever he can find a job.

I hope he's able to land something before Kara starts kindergarten in August, especially if it means moving out of the area. I don't want to pull her from school after she's started, if we can help it.

Meanwhile, I will continue the CNA program I started on Monday and look for a job of my own.

Oh, and if we have to file for unemployment, I will have to get a job to make ends meet. Unemployment will provide less than half the amount of money Tim was making at his job. It would barely cover our mortgage. But it would be better than nothing.

So the future is unclear. I don't know how much I'll be blogging in the immediate future. It seems less important than life right now.


Caren said...

I'm so sorry Michelle, it sucks to get laid off. I was laid off years ago from a job but of course, Scott is the one in our family who makes more money so we were fine until I got another job, plus we didn't have a child at the time.

It's terrible and happening so frequently, a good friend of mine was just laid off from her job as a French teacher and now her students are doing "independent study", for French. Please tell me how that's supposed to work.

My BIL was just laid off after TWENTY some years at L.L Bean in Maine and he LOVED that job. It's so sad.

I hope you guys will be Ok and that everything works out. They always say "everything happens for a reason" but sometimes I find it hard to find the reasons and I'm sure that's how you're feeling right now. I've been feeling that way for a long time.

Sorry to write a book, just know that I'm thinking of you and your family.

Casey said...

I'm sorry to hear that. It's happening all over the country, but it doesn't make it any easier.

Good luck and remember that things always work out. Even if it's a pain.

Sonia said...

Oh I'M sad to read this Michelle...... big hug to you in this difficuly time XXXXXXXXXXXX

Rookie on the Run said...

Ouch! That is painful. I am sorry. Here's another big hug to you.